Sugar junkie

I have been so unhealthy these last few weeks, I have completely lost control of my healthy diet! The fact that I don't have any routines is starting to show. I don't sleep regularly, I have done too much partying lately (it wears you out even if you don't drink) and I am, once again addicted to sugar. I feel weak and tired all the time and I need to start taking back control! I was hoping that this would be the day to do it, since it's Monday and a fresh start, but I woke up with the worst hangover ever - no, not from alcohol, my hangover is from sugar! I have noticed how badly my body reacts to sugar and unhealthy food and other bad habits. 

This weekend have been extremely intense! So, tomorrow I will start pulling myself together and eat and sleep regularly and exercise like I normally do! But once you've lost it, it's very hard to get back on track. I would really like to have more healthy friends with whom I can do fun stuff with (I have Helena and my sister but they are very often busy), that way it will not get as boring exercising. I have my iPod with the same music as I did 5 years ago. It needs a serious update.

"What do you eat??" "Attention!"

I think every woman comes to that point in her life where she realizes that she has lost her special little magic touch. I have known for quite sometime that I am losing mine, and I have thought desperately to keep it. If you ask me I personally think I used to shine! Now I feel like I've lost my charm, and as every woman, I'm sure, I I now feel invisible....

.....This is when you should put on red lipstick and slutty cloths and walk pass some very uneducated, rude men who enjoys screaming nasty things to women as they walk by. The truth is, most women enjoy it, they feel good! I love being objectified in some situations, and please girl, don't pretend to be one of those ugly hairy feminists who don't like being pretty! It is what you need to do when you feel fugly..

one more list

I love making lists, it helps me to stay organized. The list I'm working on right now is a list I think everyone should make:  the what-I -want-to-have-accomplished-before-I-die - list. I think it is important to take some time to think about what you want from life. It is easy to be unrealistic writing this list, putting cool and impressive things like travelling the world and swimming with sharks rather than what you truly want without exterior influences about what is cool/uncool, impressive/unimpressive. 

I will not show you my entire list, because it is personal, but I can give you an example: Canoe paddling - trip. See, that's hardly something that demands a great deal of money or work in order to accomplish, yet it is still on my list, because it is something that I value! And don't forget, this list is something that you should never stop working on, because new ideas will constantly pop up in your head as you get to know yourself better, you can even have a list of potential things to put on your final list that is irreversible! Good luck! :) 

new house rule

This Feng Shui stuff that I tried to apply for my home.. Let's just say that the TV that was suppose to be hidden from the social area, is now the center of my sleeping area, and my sleeping area has turned into a place where I spend most of my time. Psychologists say that the worst thing you can do is to use your bed for any other purpose than to sleep and have sex in. I do both and more in mine. I need to stop this nonsense.

New house rule: TV and all other electronic equipment shall be switched off at 10 o'clock sharp if there is no program of particular interest, such as intellectual stimuli. It is, however, allowed to be switched on when I'm with B or during the week end. 

And oh: my new thing: Nigerian movies. Last night I watched Ladies gang and one other with a ghost, and let me just say that it is delightful! It is hilarious how different they are from European and American movies. I guess the drama and relationships are different in different cultures. Nigerian men are big cheaters, but they are also the most fun to hang around (talking from my own experience, so don't even dare to call me a racist). I just have to remember never to fall in love with one again! Oups! I kinda already did.. Ok, next goal then: don't marry one..