Here we go!

Tomorrow is the big day, I am off to New York to visit my sister! I can't believe it's finally time, I have been the most bored since summer, and I really need a little adventure. I had a sucky dream last night about the outlet I'm going to outside of New York, Woodbury. I dreamed that I was going to buy my bag but they only had ugly bags that did not really represent the designer at all, green kobra skin Balenciaga, beige fake skinn Yves Saint Laurent etc etc.... It was a horrible dream...

I had the perfect day, coffee and ciggs with Maria at Gräddhyllan in Lund whoop whoop and then she helped me pack, I was in desperate need. Now everything is ready for departure, including myself!

Walnuts

Tonight I am enjoying walnuts from my mom's garden! She picked them herself and they are so good! I have no nut cracker so I will have to crack them with my teeth, but while I am ruining my teeth, there are other great benefits!! Walnuts are not only yummy, but also super healthy, rich in fiber, B vitamins, magnesium and different types of antioxidants! They also prevent the risk of heart diseases and improve the blood vessels! I will definitely eat the whole bag. And they are 100 % ecological since they are from our own walnut tree at home!

So.. don't mind my teeth, cus my heart and blood vessels are doing great!  :)

Happy Birthday, Mary!

Yesterday was my best friend Maria's birthday party. Today is her birthday, so: Happy birthday, sweetie. I love you so much, I really do! You are so amazing, and we have known each other for such a long time now. Yesterday was perfect, I loved the dinner, the company, the Coca Cola Zero :)

scary

Last night I did horror movie night (that is why I'm writing with blood) with one of my best wonderful friends, Helena and her boyfriend Max. It was great. And in the middle of everything the lamp moved!! Isn't that the scariest thing you've ever heard??? It just started to wobble, and then Max went to get his technical device that shows if there is any paranormal activity in the room, yes, amazingly and conveniently enough he has one! And he put it on the table next to him, and we continued the movie, Stay Alive. Then the fuckin device actually starts to beep! Well, what do you do.. There are definitely ghosts in their apartment, I will never in my life stay over!  

Helena, the besty.   

my new haircut!

Yep, today I hurried into town (I was at my mother's place as usual) and I went to get my hair trimmed, and of course the bangs that I so much wanted. I love love love it! Even though it was so awkward sitting in the chair because I haven't washed my hair all week, and I said to her that I was very sorry that my hair is so greasy, but I am not gonna wash my hair just cuz I have got an appointment at the hairdresser! She looked at me in a very funny/hateful way, and she cut my hair in dead silence after I had explained to her what I wanted. It took me about 5 minutes to get my thoughts together, I haven't talked to anyone for a week so I was a little slow... But it turned out great, anyway! :)

new haircut?

I really want to get a new haircut.You would think that someone like me, who spends most of my time thinking about hair would have extravagant fun haircuts...not really.. I was thinking Sienna Miller as Nikky in the movie Alfie. SO cute, I absolutely love her hair :) I love 60's and 70's hairstyles and this is so totally what I'm looking for. I almost had it last time I cut my hair, but the bangs wasn't this short. But sometimes you just have to go for it if you want to make an impact! And it will grow out, it's not like I'm gonna shave my hair off... it's just bangs for christ sake.. so what am I so worried about then? Maybe I'll go get it done tomorrow... Or maybe I'll try and do it myself.. naah, it's Maria's birthday party on Saturday..  Don't want to show with uneven hair like the last time I tried to cut it... I will definitely go to get it done tomorrow.

pre-school teacher?!?

What the hell was I thinking? Pre-school teacher?!?! I was filling in at a pre-school today, and let me just say WOW, it was the worst thing I have ever seen in my life. I could not believe the words that came out of those brats' mouths! It was horrifying, where did they even learn words like that? I asked them so and I also asked them if they knew what the words meant, and of course they did not, so I told them to go home and ask their parents to explain the words they are using in school on a daily basis. I was chocked and I only worked for three and a half hours!

Guys, seriously, there is a thing called parenting! It is not up to the teachers to raise your child! They are only meant to maintain what the parents teach their kids at home, they are NOT personal child trainers. Get a hold of your kids and make them show some damn respect! People these days seem to think that they can just leave their child at school and expect them to turn out fine. There are 30 children and two teachers. Try raising 15 kids each everyday, making them stop swearing and insulting, stop fighting and stop doing any of the other things they have been taught at HOME. And all of this for shitty wages! Nah - ah, never! 

the art... who decides?

Who decides your talents? I think I'm great at many things, and I bet many others think they are too. But how does one know that the talents possessed are more than just imagination? You constantly hear that the only opinion that matters is your own, which is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard, the only opinion that does NOT matter is your own!

Because; you cannot keep on doing your talent if you never get any acknowledgement from others. Part of the satisfaction of having a talent is to see other people enjoying it. (It is now when people are meant to say; a true artist does not care for acknowledgement)

So many artists have done years of struggling, before the big break. Now, is it that they are talented (or untalented) but not listened to or do you really just need the right person to tell everyone that you are worth the while?

Is a true talent not the sort of talent that is appreciated by everyone, or is it more like; the weirder it gets the better? Who will decide if a painter is good, average or just bad?  The thing about art is that you have to convey an emotion, and if you don't you are screwed. I get so irritated when people are doing art with their brain and not their soul. That is why it is so tricky, because you can choose to make art for yourself using your own emotions and hope that others will appreciate and understand it or you can use your brain and create what you know people want to see. I wonder, always, what is art and what is not? Can superficiality be an art, or does one have to be depressed in order to make a statement?

I feel that even the world of art is corrupt. 




Falseness is everywhere to be found and it is all  fucking depressing. 

Let it grow, let it grow, let it grow!!

I am totally determined that I will never do anything to damage my hair ever again! I will stop the highlighting and I will be careful with washing and everything. There was a time when I had long hair like this, and even though my mum didn't cut the damaged ends as often as I would have wanted her to, it was very pretty. And so I will see if it is possible for me to get long hair like this again. 

Blake Lively, she has amazing hair, a little too 

blond for my taste, but the quality is amazing! 

Gisele Bündchen, she has the best hair ever!

It is perfect, the colour, the curls, everything!! 

Amanda Seyfried has lovely hair like the girls 

at school who were flipping their long hair that their 

mothers would not let the cut off. 

Isla Fisher is a little redhead, I wouln't pesonally

choose to be a redhead, too tricky to match, but she 

makes it work. 

I know everybody is obsessed with Jennifer Aniston's

hair, but it really is perfection. 

And finally, Kate Moss! Now, this one is 

different, because I wouldn't say her hair has 

amazing quality and so, but it is just so cute, 

it always looks like she came straight from bed. 

I love that it is not so shiny.

Stewball

I am so damn ashamed of myself, I have missed the release of Alpha Blondy's new album, my absolute favorite artist. How is that even possible?? Wake up, Nicole!

 I already have a favorite song, called Stewball. Stewball was a white hoarse that won many races during the 18th century. I am a bit sensitive today, I just had a very emotional dinner at my dad's house, but that is not the only reason why I crying tonight! Alpha Blondy has always had this effect on me for some reason, I guess it's because he is from Abidjan (my favorite unknown city).

Sit-ups

Doing sit-ups is the worst thing ever, which is ironic because I seem to enjoy being on my back in all other situations (HAHA)

Since I have been blessed with an awesome booty, the stomach is what I want to turn into perfection because there is nothing sexier than a flat stomach and a fat booty!

Never in my life have I worried about how my body will look at the beach, no wait, that is not true, I have worried but I have been too lazy to try and do anything about it. This year I thought I would have a goal, like all other women have, and actually lose 5 kg before beach season and also start doing those sit-ups, but it is just not my thing! It's a matter of choice: two-pieces or one-piece this summer..?

Slightly disproportionate, but very very pretty! 

Girls night in.

Tonight, I'm going to Maria's place for a little soiree. The reason we decided to have this night was to watch the screen version of Jane Eyre, a book that we both absolutely ADORE. Unfortunately it is not yet available on DVD so we had to change our plans, so we are doing dinner and candy with gossip instead. Her man is going to a party with a friend so we will have the apartment to ourselves! Jiiihaaaah!