control

I'm quite astonished that gaining control of one's life can take forever, but losing it happens the minute too many projects are taken on.

The loss of control makes you fall into old patterns, the ones you have worked hard to break. You lose your mindfulness about things and you see everything from your perspective and no one else's. And the most sad of all things is that you start to blame others for your loss of control, you start trying to find excuses to justify your behavior and your emotions as well as your actions, when, in reality, there is no one to blame but yourself. You are the one who can't cope with life, the blame is on you.