My baby

There is one designer handbag that is a little above all other handbags of interest, the BALENCIAGA. This is the one bag that I would do "anything" to get. It is very expensive but I have this fantasy that I will find it at a reasonable price at Woodbury Outlet when I go there with my sister, which of course will not happen. But maybe in the future, I will be able to buy it. Until now I will have to settle for bags under the 5.000 SEK limit, which is ridiculously expensive also but not in comparison to this baby...

 BALENCIAGA  

Joseph Gordon-Levitt

I think it is about time for a little hunk hunk. This is my teen age crush when he was in 10 Things I hate about you, but right now I'm watching him in Killshot. He is so damn hot. 

My journey to stronger hair.

Lately, I have tried to wash my hair as little as possible, and I think that I have finally succeeded! Before I washed my hair at least three times a week and sometimes even four. I now wash my hair two times a week. And on the second day, it's definitely not as bad as it used to be!

There is nothing more depressing than when you go to the hair dresser, and they look at your hair and ask you WHAT the hell you have been doing with it.. And as you say, as you are blushing that you haven't been doing much at all except the blond high lights and they tell you in return that obviously your hair is way too fragile to be bleached and that you should stop it immediately!

So what I am going to do is: 1. Stop washing my hair. 2. Let my natural hair color grow out. I actually have a lovely hair color, not like that Swedish ditch water blond that so many girls are hiding from! I have golden light brown hair and in summertime it becomes naturally highlighted in golden blond, luscious!!

I think that this is pretty close to my natural hair color in 

winter time if I were to have absolutely no 

high lights in it, it gets much lighter in 

the summer. 

Apples

My mom and I have started Project Economical, and today we are going to benefit from all the fallen apples in her garden that are just lying there rutting away. So before dinner we sat by the dinner table peeling apples, just like in the olden days and then we made apple puree that we later had with vanilla sauce and cinnamon, watching Swedish Survivor. Tomorrow I will pick more apples and make more puree that I will later refrigerate and eat for breakfast. There is no better feeling than to make things from scratch! Both economical and ecological! 

New York!

Today, I bought my plane ticket to New York! I will go there to see my precious sister, who has now become a little New Yorker. I am quite jealous of her. I was lucky enough to find a room at her student dorm, YMCA which is a totally disgusting place to live I've heard. Living near her makes everything run a lot smoother.

I will make a list of everything I would like to get done. I have been to New York once before so I have seen the tourist attractions and I can now focus on other things: food and shopping. I am going there for Thanksgiving in November, sooo far away! Hopefully we will enjoy a lovely Thanksgiving dinner at some restaurant and maybe go see a musical. We will also go to a very big outlet outside of NYC, woop woop!! I think it's called Woodbury. I plan to save money to buy a Burberry coat and a handbag either Mulberry, Chloé or Miu Miu. Expensive, but oh so worth it! (Within certain limits, biensur.. )

My favorites

Gemma Ward used to be my favorite model in the whole world but then I just grew tired of her and since she has stopped modelling now I haven't seen her in a long time so I got a pleasant surprise when I saw a pic of her and I went WOOOOW.. I was stunned by her beauty that I had forgotten about. Are you allowed to be that pretty?? Now she gets critique because she has gained weight and people call her "fat" which is ridiculous of course. 

Burberry Prorsum

I adore this. Burberry Prorsum Spring 1012 Ready-to-wear collection. I love the colors, I love the fabrics and I love the patterns.

Ododoola Francis Franqboy Dodo Franq whatever-your-name-is Onifade.

Dodo, my dear Paris friend. First night was at O'Sullivan's after I got my handbag stolen in Barbès, and I was broke, sad and in a state of chock and so he got me drunk and I thought; wow, good to have a paying friend!!! Yes, please I'll keep him!  (just being honest!)

I have this love/hate thing going on with Dodo. We hurt each other all the time, we say mean things and we stop talking for a while and then be all over each other with excuses and promises never to say anything mean ever again! (yeah right). And he is probably the most irritating friend I have, even from day one I was asking myself; Why the hell am I even bothering with this guy, he is completely mental!?! But, the thing is... I'm kinda mental myself when you think about it.. I'm a Drama Queen, I just love to nag and I love to get tantrums and scream and behave like a crazy lady. He is probably the one person in the whole world who loves me for all my faults, not despite them! 

He is kinda smart, although it can be hard to imagine because he never talks about anything serious and he is obsessed with certain female body parts, a little as if he is stuck at age 14. Sometimes I feel bad for his poor mother having to read and see the dirt he puts on Facebook... I've heard that he likes to read books, but that fact is still to be confirmed by myself.

no big surprise is it..

As usual, it seems as if I'm complaining about life, but the fact is that I am explaining the situation in which I am finding myself. I have learned by now that I do not have the same mind as others. I do have a functional disorder even though I wish most of the time that I did not, and maybe it's time I realize and accept my limits. Maybe studies at university level (except languages) are too stressful for me to organize. The problem is that I want nothing more than to be focused and motivated but yet every time I find myself in the same situation of pure frustration of having lost my engine, again. The decision I have to make now is whether or not I will be able to cope with my brain collapsing every other week just to regain my strength and start all over again on turbo engine until my next collapse. This is the way I work: there is "in between" - mode. I either do it on turbo engine or I don not do it at all.

A friend said that it's ok if I just fuck it, fuck everyone else's expectations about my life, fuck feeling like a stupid untalented person with no future. The future is not just in your job, it's in you! I love you for telling me that, my dear friend. (the same friend also told me to get a job where I could show off my beauty:) 

stimulating my mind

I have found the "right" program - Bachelor degree in European studies. One year of language studies, and two years of political and cultural studies. I am not quite sure what I'm getting myself into.. but at least I'm in! Because I started this program two weeks after everyone else, I have major catching up to do, and I'm feeling the pressure! I have never been a genius when it comes to political knowledge and I haven't got a clue about its history. One thing I do know is that it is very important to know about this, and that's why I'm not gonna let my lack of interest stand in my way.

About my future.. well, I don't know how hard it will be for me to get a job after this, but the truth is that I don't really care right now. I just want to do something that stimulates my mind, instead of focusing on jobs and money.

I keep thinking about that quote from the commercial for L'Oréal revitalift face cream: How do I stay feeling young? By stimulating my body, my mind, my curiosity! (and for my skin, I've got it covered by using L'Oréal's Revitalift). I believe it, in order to keep in shape you also have to stimulate your mind, not just your body and skin, because if you are not in a good place in your mind, it's gonna show.

Swan Lake

After a lovely dinner at Vespa in Malmö my dad, his girlfriend, my sister and I headed to Malmö arena where they are currently showing Swan Lake. I bet most of you know it, if you haven't seen it you have probably heard the famous music by Tchaikovsky (he also did Sleeping Beauty and The Nutcracker). And for those of you who have seen the new movie with Natalie Portman and Mila Kunis this might be of particular interest. It was lovely, ballet is the most beautiful dance you can ever find! Just watch and enjoy!

MODE UTAN MIDJA - exhibition in Malmö.

Yesterday, my mum, my sister and I went to an exhibition in Malmö. It was called Mode utan midja (fashion without waist). It was rather small, but most interesting, about women in the early 20th century and their journey towards a more equal society! They were allowed to vote, they were eventually allowed to use diaphragms to prevent pregnancy etc. After the World War I, they gained confidence and realized that they can do so much more than just housework (not that housework is not hard work). One important observation was the change in fashion, they started using make up, something that was only worn by prostitutes before. For the first time in history (probably), the women started cutting off their hair, pretty chocking! Also, it was now "ok" (at least according to the women themselves) to wear inappropriately short dresses. The splendid boyish charm - La garconne was born. Dances like Charleston was HOT HOT HOT!!

Some of the sketches you are about to see are from a fashion designer in Paris Georgette, that were sent to the Swedish countess Elsa Hamilton, who loved the Paris fashion and was under the impression that the haute - couture de Paris was cheap. Even though it says clearly on the sketches Kindly return to Georgette she kept them anyway (omg, rich people have no manners) and they are now showed in this exhibition. Maybe Countess Hamilton had trouble with letters.......

The Help

I don't understand why this movie is not more famous than it is, at least not in Sweden. My mom got two free tickets from the magazine Amelia. She gave them to my sister and me, and we went last night to see a movie called The Help. It is, as so many other movies, originally a novel by Cathryn Stockett. A white young woman, Skeeter, decides to write a book from the perspective of the maids, about how it feels for an African American woman in the early 1960's to work in white households raising their white children, having to leave their own children pretty much raising themselves. I like this movie very much, it's very well done, not a lot of famous actors/actresses, which makes it even more interesting. I am sick and tired of familiar faces in movies. Enough, already!