See by Chloé

As you all know I went to New York to visit my sister, and we went to this outlet Woodbury and I finally bought a new handbag. This time I fell in love with a little See by Chloé. It's so cute and I love it! I just need to get to know it better, so this little baby sleeps next to me in my bed every night! I think it's prettier in black than camel. This New York - trip was all about black! 

My newest baby - Cherry Hobo.

aspirin facial mask = true

I've been told by two friends (I'm always last to know everything) and this morning I tried it, and it was good! The acid in the aspirin makes your skin really soft.

This is what I did: I took 6 aspirin pills and I crushed them and I added water to turn it into a paste, then I took a tea spoon of honey, mixed it together and I applied it to my face and I kept it on for about an hour as I watched Vampire Diaries, and drank my coffee. My skin feels smoother and softer, and also it is less greasy and shiny (not that I have a problem with shininess). It didn't do any miracles but I think that the longer and more regularly you use it the more the result! It's almost always like that.

So my new plan: I will apply the mask every Sunday as a part of my relaxing routines.

Treasures from New York

Everybody's surprised, so am I! I am nor normally a grand shopper, but New York and London are some of the cities where I go crazy. I have promised various friends to put pictures up on my blog so that they can see all my new shit. There are about four other things that I bought two that I'm wearing as I am writing this and I will not get undressed just to take pics or them. I also bought three handbags, but I'll show y'all those some other time!

Lovely red blazer from Urban Outfitters.  

Polka dot transparent top from American Apparel. 

This shirt comes from an unknown store. I really 

cannot recall what the store was called. All I know

is that this shirt was all they had of interest. 

Dragonfly earrings from Betsey Johnson.

Cardigan from Betsey Johnson.

Scarf from unknown designer. 

Timberland and Converse. 

Here we go!

Tomorrow is the big day, I am off to New York to visit my sister! I can't believe it's finally time, I have been the most bored since summer, and I really need a little adventure. I had a sucky dream last night about the outlet I'm going to outside of New York, Woodbury. I dreamed that I was going to buy my bag but they only had ugly bags that did not really represent the designer at all, green kobra skin Balenciaga, beige fake skinn Yves Saint Laurent etc etc.... It was a horrible dream...

I had the perfect day, coffee and ciggs with Maria at Gräddhyllan in Lund whoop whoop and then she helped me pack, I was in desperate need. Now everything is ready for departure, including myself!

Walnuts

Tonight I am enjoying walnuts from my mom's garden! She picked them herself and they are so good! I have no nut cracker so I will have to crack them with my teeth, but while I am ruining my teeth, there are other great benefits!! Walnuts are not only yummy, but also super healthy, rich in fiber, B vitamins, magnesium and different types of antioxidants! They also prevent the risk of heart diseases and improve the blood vessels! I will definitely eat the whole bag. And they are 100 % ecological since they are from our own walnut tree at home!

So.. don't mind my teeth, cus my heart and blood vessels are doing great!  :)

Happy Birthday, Mary!

Yesterday was my best friend Maria's birthday party. Today is her birthday, so: Happy birthday, sweetie. I love you so much, I really do! You are so amazing, and we have known each other for such a long time now. Yesterday was perfect, I loved the dinner, the company, the Coca Cola Zero :)

scary

Last night I did horror movie night (that is why I'm writing with blood) with one of my best wonderful friends, Helena and her boyfriend Max. It was great. And in the middle of everything the lamp moved!! Isn't that the scariest thing you've ever heard??? It just started to wobble, and then Max went to get his technical device that shows if there is any paranormal activity in the room, yes, amazingly and conveniently enough he has one! And he put it on the table next to him, and we continued the movie, Stay Alive. Then the fuckin device actually starts to beep! Well, what do you do.. There are definitely ghosts in their apartment, I will never in my life stay over!  

Helena, the besty.   

my new haircut!

Yep, today I hurried into town (I was at my mother's place as usual) and I went to get my hair trimmed, and of course the bangs that I so much wanted. I love love love it! Even though it was so awkward sitting in the chair because I haven't washed my hair all week, and I said to her that I was very sorry that my hair is so greasy, but I am not gonna wash my hair just cuz I have got an appointment at the hairdresser! She looked at me in a very funny/hateful way, and she cut my hair in dead silence after I had explained to her what I wanted. It took me about 5 minutes to get my thoughts together, I haven't talked to anyone for a week so I was a little slow... But it turned out great, anyway! :)

new haircut?

I really want to get a new haircut.You would think that someone like me, who spends most of my time thinking about hair would have extravagant fun haircuts...not really.. I was thinking Sienna Miller as Nikky in the movie Alfie. SO cute, I absolutely love her hair :) I love 60's and 70's hairstyles and this is so totally what I'm looking for. I almost had it last time I cut my hair, but the bangs wasn't this short. But sometimes you just have to go for it if you want to make an impact! And it will grow out, it's not like I'm gonna shave my hair off... it's just bangs for christ sake.. so what am I so worried about then? Maybe I'll go get it done tomorrow... Or maybe I'll try and do it myself.. naah, it's Maria's birthday party on Saturday..  Don't want to show with uneven hair like the last time I tried to cut it... I will definitely go to get it done tomorrow.

pre-school teacher?!?

What the hell was I thinking? Pre-school teacher?!?! I was filling in at a pre-school today, and let me just say WOW, it was the worst thing I have ever seen in my life. I could not believe the words that came out of those brats' mouths! It was horrifying, where did they even learn words like that? I asked them so and I also asked them if they knew what the words meant, and of course they did not, so I told them to go home and ask their parents to explain the words they are using in school on a daily basis. I was chocked and I only worked for three and a half hours!

Guys, seriously, there is a thing called parenting! It is not up to the teachers to raise your child! They are only meant to maintain what the parents teach their kids at home, they are NOT personal child trainers. Get a hold of your kids and make them show some damn respect! People these days seem to think that they can just leave their child at school and expect them to turn out fine. There are 30 children and two teachers. Try raising 15 kids each everyday, making them stop swearing and insulting, stop fighting and stop doing any of the other things they have been taught at HOME. And all of this for shitty wages! Nah - ah, never! 

the art... who decides?

Who decides your talents? I think I'm great at many things, and I bet many others think they are too. But how does one know that the talents possessed are more than just imagination? You constantly hear that the only opinion that matters is your own, which is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard, the only opinion that does NOT matter is your own!

Because; you cannot keep on doing your talent if you never get any acknowledgement from others. Part of the satisfaction of having a talent is to see other people enjoying it. (It is now when people are meant to say; a true artist does not care for acknowledgement)

So many artists have done years of struggling, before the big break. Now, is it that they are talented (or untalented) but not listened to or do you really just need the right person to tell everyone that you are worth the while?

Is a true talent not the sort of talent that is appreciated by everyone, or is it more like; the weirder it gets the better? Who will decide if a painter is good, average or just bad?  The thing about art is that you have to convey an emotion, and if you don't you are screwed. I get so irritated when people are doing art with their brain and not their soul. That is why it is so tricky, because you can choose to make art for yourself using your own emotions and hope that others will appreciate and understand it or you can use your brain and create what you know people want to see. I wonder, always, what is art and what is not? Can superficiality be an art, or does one have to be depressed in order to make a statement?

I feel that even the world of art is corrupt. 




Falseness is everywhere to be found and it is all  fucking depressing. 

Let it grow, let it grow, let it grow!!

I am totally determined that I will never do anything to damage my hair ever again! I will stop the highlighting and I will be careful with washing and everything. There was a time when I had long hair like this, and even though my mum didn't cut the damaged ends as often as I would have wanted her to, it was very pretty. And so I will see if it is possible for me to get long hair like this again. 

Blake Lively, she has amazing hair, a little too 

blond for my taste, but the quality is amazing! 

Gisele Bündchen, she has the best hair ever!

It is perfect, the colour, the curls, everything!! 

Amanda Seyfried has lovely hair like the girls 

at school who were flipping their long hair that their 

mothers would not let the cut off. 

Isla Fisher is a little redhead, I wouln't pesonally

choose to be a redhead, too tricky to match, but she 

makes it work. 

I know everybody is obsessed with Jennifer Aniston's

hair, but it really is perfection. 

And finally, Kate Moss! Now, this one is 

different, because I wouldn't say her hair has 

amazing quality and so, but it is just so cute, 

it always looks like she came straight from bed. 

I love that it is not so shiny.

Stewball

I am so damn ashamed of myself, I have missed the release of Alpha Blondy's new album, my absolute favorite artist. How is that even possible?? Wake up, Nicole!

 I already have a favorite song, called Stewball. Stewball was a white hoarse that won many races during the 18th century. I am a bit sensitive today, I just had a very emotional dinner at my dad's house, but that is not the only reason why I crying tonight! Alpha Blondy has always had this effect on me for some reason, I guess it's because he is from Abidjan (my favorite unknown city).

Sit-ups

Doing sit-ups is the worst thing ever, which is ironic because I seem to enjoy being on my back in all other situations (HAHA)

Since I have been blessed with an awesome booty, the stomach is what I want to turn into perfection because there is nothing sexier than a flat stomach and a fat booty!

Never in my life have I worried about how my body will look at the beach, no wait, that is not true, I have worried but I have been too lazy to try and do anything about it. This year I thought I would have a goal, like all other women have, and actually lose 5 kg before beach season and also start doing those sit-ups, but it is just not my thing! It's a matter of choice: two-pieces or one-piece this summer..?

Slightly disproportionate, but very very pretty! 

Girls night in.

Tonight, I'm going to Maria's place for a little soiree. The reason we decided to have this night was to watch the screen version of Jane Eyre, a book that we both absolutely ADORE. Unfortunately it is not yet available on DVD so we had to change our plans, so we are doing dinner and candy with gossip instead. Her man is going to a party with a friend so we will have the apartment to ourselves! Jiiihaaaah!

Sugar junkie

I have been so unhealthy these last few weeks, I have completely lost control of my healthy diet! The fact that I don't have any routines is starting to show. I don't sleep regularly, I have done too much partying lately (it wears you out even if you don't drink) and I am, once again addicted to sugar. I feel weak and tired all the time and I need to start taking back control! I was hoping that this would be the day to do it, since it's Monday and a fresh start, but I woke up with the worst hangover ever - no, not from alcohol, my hangover is from sugar! I have noticed how badly my body reacts to sugar and unhealthy food and other bad habits. 

This weekend have been extremely intense! So, tomorrow I will start pulling myself together and eat and sleep regularly and exercise like I normally do! But once you've lost it, it's very hard to get back on track. I would really like to have more healthy friends with whom I can do fun stuff with (I have Helena and my sister but they are very often busy), that way it will not get as boring exercising. I have my iPod with the same music as I did 5 years ago. It needs a serious update.

"What do you eat??" "Attention!"

I think every woman comes to that point in her life where she realizes that she has lost her special little magic touch. I have known for quite sometime that I am losing mine, and I have thought desperately to keep it. If you ask me I personally think I used to shine! Now I feel like I've lost my charm, and as every woman, I'm sure, I I now feel invisible....

.....This is when you should put on red lipstick and slutty cloths and walk pass some very uneducated, rude men who enjoys screaming nasty things to women as they walk by. The truth is, most women enjoy it, they feel good! I love being objectified in some situations, and please girl, don't pretend to be one of those ugly hairy feminists who don't like being pretty! It is what you need to do when you feel fugly..

one more list

I love making lists, it helps me to stay organized. The list I'm working on right now is a list I think everyone should make:  the what-I -want-to-have-accomplished-before-I-die - list. I think it is important to take some time to think about what you want from life. It is easy to be unrealistic writing this list, putting cool and impressive things like travelling the world and swimming with sharks rather than what you truly want without exterior influences about what is cool/uncool, impressive/unimpressive. 

I will not show you my entire list, because it is personal, but I can give you an example: Canoe paddling - trip. See, that's hardly something that demands a great deal of money or work in order to accomplish, yet it is still on my list, because it is something that I value! And don't forget, this list is something that you should never stop working on, because new ideas will constantly pop up in your head as you get to know yourself better, you can even have a list of potential things to put on your final list that is irreversible! Good luck! :) 

new house rule

This Feng Shui stuff that I tried to apply for my home.. Let's just say that the TV that was suppose to be hidden from the social area, is now the center of my sleeping area, and my sleeping area has turned into a place where I spend most of my time. Psychologists say that the worst thing you can do is to use your bed for any other purpose than to sleep and have sex in. I do both and more in mine. I need to stop this nonsense.

New house rule: TV and all other electronic equipment shall be switched off at 10 o'clock sharp if there is no program of particular interest, such as intellectual stimuli. It is, however, allowed to be switched on when I'm with B or during the week end. 

And oh: my new thing: Nigerian movies. Last night I watched Ladies gang and one other with a ghost, and let me just say that it is delightful! It is hilarious how different they are from European and American movies. I guess the drama and relationships are different in different cultures. Nigerian men are big cheaters, but they are also the most fun to hang around (talking from my own experience, so don't even dare to call me a racist). I just have to remember never to fall in love with one again! Oups! I kinda already did.. Ok, next goal then: don't marry one..

My baby

There is one designer handbag that is a little above all other handbags of interest, the BALENCIAGA. This is the one bag that I would do "anything" to get. It is very expensive but I have this fantasy that I will find it at a reasonable price at Woodbury Outlet when I go there with my sister, which of course will not happen. But maybe in the future, I will be able to buy it. Until now I will have to settle for bags under the 5.000 SEK limit, which is ridiculously expensive also but not in comparison to this baby...

 BALENCIAGA  

Joseph Gordon-Levitt

I think it is about time for a little hunk hunk. This is my teen age crush when he was in 10 Things I hate about you, but right now I'm watching him in Killshot. He is so damn hot. 

My journey to stronger hair.

Lately, I have tried to wash my hair as little as possible, and I think that I have finally succeeded! Before I washed my hair at least three times a week and sometimes even four. I now wash my hair two times a week. And on the second day, it's definitely not as bad as it used to be!

There is nothing more depressing than when you go to the hair dresser, and they look at your hair and ask you WHAT the hell you have been doing with it.. And as you say, as you are blushing that you haven't been doing much at all except the blond high lights and they tell you in return that obviously your hair is way too fragile to be bleached and that you should stop it immediately!

So what I am going to do is: 1. Stop washing my hair. 2. Let my natural hair color grow out. I actually have a lovely hair color, not like that Swedish ditch water blond that so many girls are hiding from! I have golden light brown hair and in summertime it becomes naturally highlighted in golden blond, luscious!!

I think that this is pretty close to my natural hair color in 

winter time if I were to have absolutely no 

high lights in it, it gets much lighter in 

the summer. 

Apples

My mom and I have started Project Economical, and today we are going to benefit from all the fallen apples in her garden that are just lying there rutting away. So before dinner we sat by the dinner table peeling apples, just like in the olden days and then we made apple puree that we later had with vanilla sauce and cinnamon, watching Swedish Survivor. Tomorrow I will pick more apples and make more puree that I will later refrigerate and eat for breakfast. There is no better feeling than to make things from scratch! Both economical and ecological! 

New York!

Today, I bought my plane ticket to New York! I will go there to see my precious sister, who has now become a little New Yorker. I am quite jealous of her. I was lucky enough to find a room at her student dorm, YMCA which is a totally disgusting place to live I've heard. Living near her makes everything run a lot smoother.

I will make a list of everything I would like to get done. I have been to New York once before so I have seen the tourist attractions and I can now focus on other things: food and shopping. I am going there for Thanksgiving in November, sooo far away! Hopefully we will enjoy a lovely Thanksgiving dinner at some restaurant and maybe go see a musical. We will also go to a very big outlet outside of NYC, woop woop!! I think it's called Woodbury. I plan to save money to buy a Burberry coat and a handbag either Mulberry, Chloé or Miu Miu. Expensive, but oh so worth it! (Within certain limits, biensur.. )

My favorites

Gemma Ward used to be my favorite model in the whole world but then I just grew tired of her and since she has stopped modelling now I haven't seen her in a long time so I got a pleasant surprise when I saw a pic of her and I went WOOOOW.. I was stunned by her beauty that I had forgotten about. Are you allowed to be that pretty?? Now she gets critique because she has gained weight and people call her "fat" which is ridiculous of course. 

Burberry Prorsum

I adore this. Burberry Prorsum Spring 1012 Ready-to-wear collection. I love the colors, I love the fabrics and I love the patterns.

Ododoola Francis Franqboy Dodo Franq whatever-your-name-is Onifade.

Dodo, my dear Paris friend. First night was at O'Sullivan's after I got my handbag stolen in Barbès, and I was broke, sad and in a state of chock and so he got me drunk and I thought; wow, good to have a paying friend!!! Yes, please I'll keep him!  (just being honest!)

I have this love/hate thing going on with Dodo. We hurt each other all the time, we say mean things and we stop talking for a while and then be all over each other with excuses and promises never to say anything mean ever again! (yeah right). And he is probably the most irritating friend I have, even from day one I was asking myself; Why the hell am I even bothering with this guy, he is completely mental!?! But, the thing is... I'm kinda mental myself when you think about it.. I'm a Drama Queen, I just love to nag and I love to get tantrums and scream and behave like a crazy lady. He is probably the one person in the whole world who loves me for all my faults, not despite them! 

He is kinda smart, although it can be hard to imagine because he never talks about anything serious and he is obsessed with certain female body parts, a little as if he is stuck at age 14. Sometimes I feel bad for his poor mother having to read and see the dirt he puts on Facebook... I've heard that he likes to read books, but that fact is still to be confirmed by myself.

no big surprise is it..

As usual, it seems as if I'm complaining about life, but the fact is that I am explaining the situation in which I am finding myself. I have learned by now that I do not have the same mind as others. I do have a functional disorder even though I wish most of the time that I did not, and maybe it's time I realize and accept my limits. Maybe studies at university level (except languages) are too stressful for me to organize. The problem is that I want nothing more than to be focused and motivated but yet every time I find myself in the same situation of pure frustration of having lost my engine, again. The decision I have to make now is whether or not I will be able to cope with my brain collapsing every other week just to regain my strength and start all over again on turbo engine until my next collapse. This is the way I work: there is "in between" - mode. I either do it on turbo engine or I don not do it at all.

A friend said that it's ok if I just fuck it, fuck everyone else's expectations about my life, fuck feeling like a stupid untalented person with no future. The future is not just in your job, it's in you! I love you for telling me that, my dear friend. (the same friend also told me to get a job where I could show off my beauty:) 

stimulating my mind

I have found the "right" program - Bachelor degree in European studies. One year of language studies, and two years of political and cultural studies. I am not quite sure what I'm getting myself into.. but at least I'm in! Because I started this program two weeks after everyone else, I have major catching up to do, and I'm feeling the pressure! I have never been a genius when it comes to political knowledge and I haven't got a clue about its history. One thing I do know is that it is very important to know about this, and that's why I'm not gonna let my lack of interest stand in my way.

About my future.. well, I don't know how hard it will be for me to get a job after this, but the truth is that I don't really care right now. I just want to do something that stimulates my mind, instead of focusing on jobs and money.

I keep thinking about that quote from the commercial for L'Oréal revitalift face cream: How do I stay feeling young? By stimulating my body, my mind, my curiosity! (and for my skin, I've got it covered by using L'Oréal's Revitalift). I believe it, in order to keep in shape you also have to stimulate your mind, not just your body and skin, because if you are not in a good place in your mind, it's gonna show.

Swan Lake

After a lovely dinner at Vespa in Malmö my dad, his girlfriend, my sister and I headed to Malmö arena where they are currently showing Swan Lake. I bet most of you know it, if you haven't seen it you have probably heard the famous music by Tchaikovsky (he also did Sleeping Beauty and The Nutcracker). And for those of you who have seen the new movie with Natalie Portman and Mila Kunis this might be of particular interest. It was lovely, ballet is the most beautiful dance you can ever find! Just watch and enjoy!

MODE UTAN MIDJA - exhibition in Malmö.

Yesterday, my mum, my sister and I went to an exhibition in Malmö. It was called Mode utan midja (fashion without waist). It was rather small, but most interesting, about women in the early 20th century and their journey towards a more equal society! They were allowed to vote, they were eventually allowed to use diaphragms to prevent pregnancy etc. After the World War I, they gained confidence and realized that they can do so much more than just housework (not that housework is not hard work). One important observation was the change in fashion, they started using make up, something that was only worn by prostitutes before. For the first time in history (probably), the women started cutting off their hair, pretty chocking! Also, it was now "ok" (at least according to the women themselves) to wear inappropriately short dresses. The splendid boyish charm - La garconne was born. Dances like Charleston was HOT HOT HOT!!

Some of the sketches you are about to see are from a fashion designer in Paris Georgette, that were sent to the Swedish countess Elsa Hamilton, who loved the Paris fashion and was under the impression that the haute - couture de Paris was cheap. Even though it says clearly on the sketches Kindly return to Georgette she kept them anyway (omg, rich people have no manners) and they are now showed in this exhibition. Maybe Countess Hamilton had trouble with letters.......